If your mother is still alive today, I hope you were able to speak with your mother whether in person or via telephone.
Let us also remember to uplift those who have lost their mothers in prayer today.
In addition, pray for those whose journey as a mother has not yet began.
My journey began over 5 years ago. I can still remember giving birth to my daughter and seeing her face for the first time. I can also recall a similar experience again when my son was born.
I am honored to have my 2 precious children. I am blessed.
As I was taking a shower tonight, I allowed my mind to wander to a time when I thought my future would not include children. That time was very brief. However, it was agonizing all the same.
My husband and I were married 7 years ago and initially we had a 5 year plan. Our 5 year plan was one that would allow us both to go back to school and get our Master's degree, to travel, buy a house and pay off as much debt as possible. This plan did not include children. We wanted children but not right away. We thought, oh we can wait! However, God's plan was different than ours. We were going to learn that in a HUGE way.
My husband and I were "baby Christians" and we were not trusting God the way He wanted us to. We were getting a wake up call in a BIG way. To make a long story short, 3 months after our marriage I needed to have a surgery that would change my life. This was literally a turning point for me and my husband. Without getting into too many details, I was sitting in my doctor's office one day (getting a diagnosis) and 2 days later I was prepped and put under anesthesia to have surgery. It was very surreal.
After surgery I woke up with one question on my mind, "will I be able to have children?" You already know the outcome since I have 2 beautiful children. However, immediately following my surgery no matter what anyone said (yes even the doctor), I was convinced I would not have children. I spent a lot of time crying about this. Days following my surgery I was on bended knees crying out to God to give me a sign. One night following that I had a dream and in my dream, I was the mother of a beautiful baby girl and then I knew. Without a shadow of a doubt I knew God would bless me with a daughter at some point in my life (it was not surprising that almost 2 years later we had a baby girl).
I had to learn how to put ALL my trust in God. Not some but all. The surgery was an eye-wakening experience for me and my husband. It put our whole life into perspective. No matter what else we have faced in life, we've always known that there is only one fact we can believe. That fact is we can always TRUST God. We have stopped trying to be the pilots of our lives since then; we gave that job rightfully back to God and He has never steered us astray.
God ways are not our ways. His plans are not always our plans.
Jeremiah 29:11 (New International Version)
11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
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