Monday, July 13, 2009

I am learning...

to let loose! Sometimes, you get to a point where you say , "I just wanna let down my hair and not care..." (okay whatever the saying is, you know what I mean).

I am one of those Moms who can be very anal about a lot of insignificant things. I strive for perfection and most times I drive myself crazy.

In the past it has been very hard for me to be "spontaneous."

I love to be organized and to have a plan. I keep a calendar and write down what I'm doing each day so that I can stay on top of things.

It would drive me crazy when I didn't get things done on my "list."

Also, I like for everything to be in its place. If it's not then I go crazy too.

Now I've come to realize that sometimes I have to just "let loose." I can't get so worked up about every little thing.

When you have children, you can drive yourself insane worrying about every little thing.

All of my children have different personalities and so they are not the same. We wouldn't want it that way either or life would be boring.

However, this is why we have to deal with things not always going exactly the way we would like.

I am learning that I have to just "let loose" and not be so anal about little things.

Now when I see other moms going insane about every little thing, I think to myself that I used to be that mom. I wish that when I just had one child that I didn't get so easily bothered by certain things, but I did. I'm not 100% there yet but I'm slowly losing my anal quality--at least when it concerns my children.

I'm learning that it's okay to just "let loose" and have fun. It's okay to not even care if the house is not clean. It's okay that the kids don't sit at the table for all their meals and they make a mess with their food. They are kids and they will behave like kids.

I wish I could tell you that I've already "learned" this and everything is all peachy now but the truth is I am still learning this. There are days when I still drive myself crazy with my "perfectionist" syndrome. Then I'll stop and say, "what am I doing? Is this really worth the extra stress?" And 9 times out of 10 the answer is no.

1 comment:

Unknown said...

wow ... finally you are learning what I have been living by for yeras, yes it is so okay for them tobump their little heads every once in a while and germs is not always bad... after all what doesn't kill you will build up your immune systems for those terrible school days of bird and swine flu and even mad cow disease... live love and laugh kids will be kids. I love you perfectionist syndrome and all...