Have You Ever...

heard your phone ringing and knew before you picked it up that it was going to be bad news? Minutes before church yesterday we received a phone call just like that. It seems as if the mere ringing of the phone was screaming out the news at us. At first, I froze completed. I panicked and then tried to convince myself once I looked at the caller ID that the person calling just simply wanted casual conversation and had no idea that he or she was going to make me late for church.

I didn't even realized that I had muttered something like, "why is she calling?" Next thing I knew, Greg was saying, "if she's calling NOW it must be important!" Of course I knew that, but the mind is a powerful thing and my mind had already convinced me that the news was too BAD for me to even listen to. I didn't know whether to run and hide or pick up the receiver. My brain couldn't wrap around the idea of receiving devastating news when just minutes ago we were all talking and laughing while getting dressed for church. My soul felt tormented and I started to think of every doom imaginable. By the time I picked up the receiver, my voice betrayed me because the way I said hello was surely as if I already knew the reason for the call.

The moment the person heard my voice and spoke, we both started sobbing like crazy. All of a sudden, I was desperate for information. I'm sure I had stop breathing at this point while waiting in anticipation. I started screaming, "what happened? what hapenned?". I did this repeatedly because I wanted to postpone the inevitable-- the info this person was going to tell me. In the end, the news was BAD. I couldn't find the words to say to my very dear friend who was just reporting that her husband was diagnosed with cancer. I cried with her and I said whatever encouraging words I could say but I can't remember half of what I said now.

My heart aches for her and her husband. I'm so torn. I'm torn because I want to pray for healing but I also need to pray for the husband's salvation. This to me is more important. After I hanged up the telephone, this bothered me the most because I knew he is not prepared to meet Jesus. I am so sad about this but I know there's still time. I am praying for his redemption and healing. I want God glorified in all of this situation and I know He will be. Your will God, your will be done.

I was sad while at church and I just felt like I was in a daze most of the day. The worship songs touched my heart and I got emotional a few times. Then the message by Missionary Ben King was AMAZING!! It resonated in my heart throughout all of yesterday and even today. The most important part that I took away was how important it is to win souls for God's kingdom. I just kept thinking yes Lord I hear you! The message confirmed what I was already thinking about my friend's husband. He needs Jesus! There are other lost souls all over this world and they all need Jesus! We need to keep telling everybody we know about Jesus, before it's too late! Help us Lord. Help us.