Today

I've heard is said many times that Today is a gift. That's why it is called present. I know, very cliche. However, it suits this blog. Today started off just okay for me. There was nothing bad about the day except that I've been really tired. I've been keeping busy planning my daughter's birthday party and just doing a few projects around the house. Saturday was our last major "work" day in the house before Adryana's party. So, it was a long day of doing lots of work around the house.

We didn't have a bad morning or anything like that. In fact, our morning started off quite fine. I even made breakfast and we sat around the table and ate (very rare on Sunday mornings since we have to go to church). I ate a big lunch late yesterday and didn't feel hungry so I skipped dinner. This morning I woke up starving and rightfully so since all I had before bed was a cup of tea. So, this morning I felt like making a big breakfast; I knew I would need the brain fuel too since I was going to teach Arjay's class. That went very well today. We had a good lesson about "the lost sheep" and we did all kind of fun things with cotton balls, Easter grass, cheerios and a lamb puppet. It was actually a lot of fun today teaching the children and we only had 3 little ones.

After we got back from church, we ate our lunch and I just felt so out of sorts. I knew I was tired but I felt like I had so much to do that I just couldn't stop getting stuff done. I even needed to go to the store and get some grocery items (we are out of apple juice and almost out of water, we are never out of water so I'm freaking out!) I really felt overwhelmed.

I finally told Greg how I was feeling and he said come and relax. He did everything he could to help me relax and I finally settled on reading in my bed. This helps sometimes because if I'm tired enough I'll drift off to sleep which is very rare since I don't usually take naps. Today was a rare day! I finally fell asleep and except for the phone waking me up briefly at one point; I was not disturbed for over 2 hours. It felt really good. I needed that nap more than I knew. I woke up feeling refreshed and in a much better mood. I then went right into the kitchen and made Sunday dinner for my family. Dinner was a little late but everyone was understanding and seemed pleased with the dinner.

See my problem is that I keep my mind active with so many thoughts and ideas that I have a hard time sleeping. Even at nights, some times I lay awake for hours just making lists in my head and planning out my whole week even for events taht are months away. I've always had this problem. So now that Adryana's birthday is a week away, I've been having many nights of limited sleep. I stay awake thinking and planning her party. I think about all the things I still have to do and also ideas of what I will do. I'll even "picture" exactly how I want things/events to go way before I attend. I know I have a wandering mind. I also know that the Bible talks about not worrying and that Tomorrow will take care of itself. I know that I need to focus on only Today because I do not know what Tomorrow will bring. God please help me...